Thursday, March 03, 2005
I went over Marlene's and we got pizza from Antonio's. I ended up with a large pizza, but I still ate it all somehow. I enjoy my time just hanging out with my sister. I should enjoy it while it lasts.
Only one thing really gets to me now. And that's the fact that I've almost stopped believing in God. I hardly feel anything for anybody, but when I think about God tears begin to come to my eyes. I've helped others learn more about God and become closer to him, but now I can't seem to do the same for myself. I look at my Bible everyday and want to pick it up, but I don't. What happened to the days when I used to read it everyday? I still say short prayers everyday, but nothing truly meaningful. I even took my crosses off, and for those of you that know me, I never take my crosses off.
Almost everything I think tells me to go back to how I was last week and just basically cut myself off from the rest of the world, but deep down I don't want to do that. But I'm afraid that eventually I will do that again.
Only one thing really gets to me now. And that's the fact that I've almost stopped believing in God. I hardly feel anything for anybody, but when I think about God tears begin to come to my eyes. I've helped others learn more about God and become closer to him, but now I can't seem to do the same for myself. I look at my Bible everyday and want to pick it up, but I don't. What happened to the days when I used to read it everyday? I still say short prayers everyday, but nothing truly meaningful. I even took my crosses off, and for those of you that know me, I never take my crosses off.
Almost everything I think tells me to go back to how I was last week and just basically cut myself off from the rest of the world, but deep down I don't want to do that. But I'm afraid that eventually I will do that again.
# posted by Matt @ 10:56 PM 
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I will keep praying for you. God is there waiting for you to ask him for help all you have to do is ask. You have friends and family who love you and care so much, we all want to help you. Remember that you are not alone.
I know i had already posted a comment but i wanted you to read this:
"Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
- Matthew 11: 28-30
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"Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
- Matthew 11: 28-30
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