Saturday, February 17, 2007
sometimes i think my life would be easier if i just drank. maybe i'd fit in more. maybe it'd be easier for me to meet new people. maybe it'd be easier for me to open up around others and have a good time. maybe i'd get out more instead of my routine being work, school, work, school, work, school and more work. i made a promise to myself over 10 year ago that i wouldn't drink, so i don't want to break it, but the pressure is mounting to. and it's all pressure from within, which is tearing me apart. i've known all along i never really made it through my depression. i was able to push it down for awhile, but recently i've had a few misses in life and it's coming back up. this is going to make this semester harder than i was already making it.