Tuesday, November 30, 2004

first off, it's a very sad day. ken jennings lost. *moment of silence*

i got greg and kym hooked on those 9 piece puzzles. they get something to do and they provide me with plenty of entertainment.

went to the women's basketball game tonight vs. utsa. it was a close game at first, but then A&M blew them out. i rode the bus over there and got there like 35 minutes before the game started, but i didn't want to walk and it was the last bus running. plus getting there early got me a free t-shirt. i almost had another one when they were throwing them out, but it was just out of my reach and brandi got it. i spent money on food at the game, which i shouldn't have, but i was hungry. after the game brandi gave me a ride home so i got lucky and didn't have to walk either way. that was a good thing cuz it's cold here. and of course i was wearing shorts and a t-shirt.

i register in the morning and have no idea what i'm going to take. i'm really not feeling this school thing.

what should i major in? any suggestions?

i don't know whether it's my comfortable bed or whether my body is just giving out. But for the past two nights I've layed on my bed and soon after been ready to just pass out. And I did. Plus I haven't been waking up a few hours later. Interesting...

Monday, November 29, 2004

lets try music

but will i pick the right songs?
most likely not

i couldn't get my printer to work yesterday, which sucks. then i had to reformat my memory card for my camera, but that's okay since i had already uploaded all the pictures. i was worn out so i talked online some then crashed last night. the air in our room is broken so it's hot in here. that's no good. let's see how today goes.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

got a late start today. woke up around 10am. got up ate and finished packing. we went over my grandmothers first to load aol 9.0 on her computer. then we got drinks from robecks before heading out of town. got to A&M and unloaded then i got food from long john silvers while my momma and marlene went shopping at HEB. back in my room now trying to unpack things and set up my printer. then i must upload my pictures.

am i alright? if you ask me, i'll tell you i am.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

yesterday was good after i woke up late. just hanging out with everybody was quite nice.

football was fun today, even if it was muddy and slippery out there. i handed out the last of my livestrong bands and got a small, but oh so lovely present from the one who dances. came home and showered, ate, watched tv. left and hung out over pujan's again for the game. the stupid rockets lost again, but bobby sura is back so therefore the rockets shall soon rise to the top of the league. left there and Q and I went over to Olivia's and chilled there for awhile. now i'm back home and should sleep, but i feel like eating.

it's been nice hanging out with old friends these past few days. something to think about for the future.

Friday, November 26, 2004

stayed up last night and finished watching my movie around 3am. then my momma wanted to go see if people were already lined up at best buy because that's where she wanted to get her computer from. so we went there and it was already a long ass line. so we left and ended up at circuit city. my services weren't needed so i crashed in the front seat while my momma waited. she got her computer then we went to target and i got a digital camera. then we went to office depot and i got my all-in-one printer/scanner/copier. i borrowed the money from my grandmother so now i have to work to pay her back and then keep working to pay off my credit card bill. now it's back home. i could sleep or i could just stay up. i'll probably eventually fall asleep. i've spent all the money i can for the next year. was it worth it? who cares. too late now. lets see if i can enjoy what i got. i gotta work for it though. lets grind.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

went out bowling tonight instead of staying in. it was fun. i bowled better than i had expected, but not good enough. after bowling we went over to adam's. i started watching anti-trust, which was good. we didn't get to finish it though, so i borrowed it and now i must go watch it.

today i had planned to make a list of what i was thankful for. i started thinking and came to the conclusion that in the past couple months i haven't been thankful for very much. mainly one that dances.

for over two years i read the bible every night. no matter what. the only time i pray now is when i read the word of the day in my email and before i eat to bless the food. such a shame.

this year i have been thankful for...nothing
this year i should've been thankful for...everything

i am thankful for...

first off, i hope everyone has had a happy thanksgiving

mine so far has been decent thanks to my little cousin. i got to be happy for the short time that i got to spend around her. we took pictures and read books and it was great. the food over my grandmothers was great. i completely stuffed myself. then stood outside with my brother and cousin for awhile just talking. now i'm back home wondering if i should go out or just stay in like last night. oh well, i don't care.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

the truth hurts
this time it broke me

a bad night for me in phase 10. i just got whooped. oh well, stayed up all night and went to breakfast as usual. came back and halfway packed. my momma got in town about 8:20am. I took stuff down then brought stuff up then packed some more and took that down. went to marlene's room and got her stuff. went to chick-fil-a where i got another breakfast. hit the road and took a little nap on the way back. got into town and visited monica at hallmark. picked up a pie from pappadeux and now i'm finally home. lets see if this will be a good trip.

"As long as a person doesn't admit he is defeated, he is not defeated -- he's just a little behind and isn't through fighting."
-- Darrell Royal, Texas football coach

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

a long night. cold outside. wet socks.

walking towards the stars was good.
but then i had to walk away from the stars to get back.

"I see what beautiful is about
When I'm looking in
Not when I'm looking out"

Lonestar-My Front Porch Looking In

ride or die

a wasted day. a day that just sucked. i tried to make it a good day, but it wasn't meant to be one. oh well, fuck it, try to move on. the day wasn't good and the night was worse. now i'm just in a mood where i don't want to be bothered.

i don't know what to do. which way to go.
i try this and it doesn't work. i try that and get sent right back.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

never really woke up today. throat finally feels better though.

i just don't know anymore.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Had a long conversation with my momma for the first time in awhile. That was good. Watched some good movies on tv before taking a nap. I woke up 20 minutes before work, got dressed up and went over to rudder. All I had to do was stand around for 4 hours making sure people didn't go through a door that they weren't supposed to go through. Easy money. Got off work and went to Marlene's room to get the food that she brought me from Lane's. Ate there and joked aroudn with Daarina. She's crazy(period). Walked back to my room. Tonight I get to try to fix Marlene's laptop. We'll see what I can do with a mac.

Stupid throat.

maybe it's strep throat. either way, :-(

it's been a long time since they started, but when it comes down to it the power rangers can still put on a good show. they just showed the last episode of power rangers dino thunder, and it was one for the memories. bravo power rangers. i still want them to do a marathon of the first season though. that'd be too cool.

i think i have tonsilitis :-(

didn't go to sleep after my 13 1/2 hour shift for some reason. I don't know how, but i managed to stay up until 4:30 in the morning only to have to wake up at 7 to go back to work. Got breakfast as usual then went to work. It wasn't a bad day at work. Got off work and almost went to sleep, but made myself get up and go to the gym. Felt good playing basketball. I figured out that when my back starts hurting that I should just stretch it out some then keep playing through the pain and it'll eventually go away. Came back after a few hours at the gym and just crashed. Me and sleeping schedules just don't go together.

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Woke up at 6am this morning and watched Saved By The Bell. Went and got breakfast at 7am then went to work for 7:30am. Got to work and we started immediately today. Got out there and finished setting up the rest of the 2500 white chairs. Then we set up some red chairs. Then we set out the plants. Then shoveled and wheelbarrelled sand over the muddy places (which really didn't help any). Then they had us wipe off ALL the chairs. That was annoying. We got to watch the memorial, which was nice. Then after it was over it was back to work, double time. We had to take down all the chairs, which was really a pain. Then take apart all the stages. Load everthing onto the trucks then unload it at Rudder. They brought out a portable light so that we could keep working after dark. We were supposed to get off at 6pm, but somebody changed the plans. Originally we were supposed to take everything down in two days, but instead we took it all down tonight. We finally finished up a little before 9pm. This 13 1/2 hour day reminded me of the long work days over the summer. But in the end it feels good to know that I earned my money. Yesterday my shirt was soaked from the rain. Today it was soaked from sweat. Left work and went over to Marlene's to get the food that she got me from On The Border. I ate that then walked back to my room. Took off my extremely muddy shoes and pants. Got in the shower and just sat down and let the water run over me. I kept almost falling asleep so I got out before I really did fall asleep. Now I should really go to sleep.

It's a lot of cool people that work at Rudder. I should've been working there all semester.

Yesterday was rough. Went to breakfast after staying up all night then went to work. Got out to the Bonfire Memorial site around 8am. We were setting up chairs for most of the time. Thousands of white chairs. It started raining, which wasn't cool. I could feel my immune system breaking down. Lucky me though, around 11 they needed a couple people to go in and hellp set up lights. Since I wasn't wearing a jacket and was already soaked, I got to be o ne of those lucky two people. Got inside and helped with the lights. Sorted the colored sheets for the lights. Took lunch at 12th Man instead of eating a boxed lunch out in the rain. Got a free t-shirt from outside the MSC. Went back to work and filed the colored sheets we sorted. Then I basically rested for awhile. Got up and mopped the stage. Sat in a chair, propped my legs up and went to sleep. I was so knocked out. Woke up about an hour later and decided I was finished. They didn't need me and I was out of it so I left about 5:15. Went and got food, watched some tv, and was knocked out.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

stupid career safari test. wasting my time. oh well, signed up for work today. the next two days should be fun.

this was one of those nights that i really could've used someone to talk to that was outside of A&M. but i couldn't think of who to call. so few highs, so many lows.

Monday, November 15, 2004

ended up playing phase 10 all night instead of just watching tv. i've missed that game. i shall have to start playing more often.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Got up and ate today. Watched Womens basketball and then some NFL. The NFL game seemed very long for some reason. Glad I didn't have to stand all the way through that. Bummed around until the Simpson's came on. Watched that then went to the rec. I weighed myself and wanted to cry. I'm such a fat ass now. It's just sad. I shot around some then ran one game. My lower back is so weak though that's I stopped even though my team won. I subbed in near the end of the next game for a injured player, but that was it for me. Tomorrow I work out my lower back. And do some running. I'm so out of shape. Damn my lazy ass. Got a smoothie then ate at Rumours after the rec. Now I should go to sleep. I'm half tired, but half awake. What shall I do? Probably stay awake as always.

got up and ate then went to our game. my ankles and knees started killing me from standing on the wobbling bench, plus my back from just standing up. i had to keep stepping down to take a break. it was a good game, which we won in OT. after the game we went looking for somewhere to eat. we tried cotton patch, but they were full and had an hour wait so we tried some other places before ending up at bennigan's, which still had a 45 minute wait. Before we got seated I found word dojo and got hooked on it again. I didn't have my original partners with me so we didn't get to a million. We got seated and the service was SOOOOO slow. We waited for over an hour. People complained and they took 50% off each check. Then the food wasn't so great and people complained some more so they gave us all the food for free and just charged us for the specialty drinks that people ordered. So that was good. Plus my food was good and I got a lto so it really filled me up. I barely finished it. After that I just came back to my room and watched Man On Fire. Now I'll sit here until I fall asleep. I have a lot of energy for some reason though. Oh well. Not a bad day overall.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

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виноват - guilty

Yesterday seemed long. Had breakfast at IHOP at 6am, which was good because I had been craving it for awhile. Then I ran some errands. Got back to my room and helped somebody with their application for CARPOOL. I didn't sleep the other night and didn't sleep until a little after 5 yesterday. And even then I only slept for an hour because I had to wake up for the mens basketball game. I was tired and was in a bad mood. We stayed a little past halftime, but it was a blowout so we left. Tried going to the soccer game to get another stamp, but it was $2 since it was a NCAA event so we just left and went to get food. After that I tried watching movies, but crashed instead. I woke up around 2am and was wide awake, so I just watched tv until I fell asleep.

BTHO Texas Tech

Thursday, November 11, 2004

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Мы очень очень огорченны!
Ева и Милена

We're very very sorry!
Eva and Melena

Went to the rec finally. Ran a couple games and it felt good to be back out there, but I'm so out of shape. Hopefully I can slowly get back into a routine and get back into shape.

"To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch... to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded!"

i think i'll have to start buying extra food during the day more so i'll always have something to eat at night. either that or actually go to the store and get some real food. but since i have less than $2 to my name right now i think i'll have to stick with the on campus food for now.

I've been trying to translate the russian signs from www.sorryeverybody.com. The one in gallery 32, which says:

я из америки
я не понимаю


I am from America
I do not understand

The one in gallery 35 says:

молодце американци
не плюй в колодец
случится воды напиться

I don't quite understand this one though. The first line says, 'young americans.' I think the second line says, 'do not spit into the well,' but the third line isn't making sense.

I changed my settings to where I can type things in russian now. I just need to learn the keyboard layout for it. I'm starting to get the hang of it.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

either i'll go to rudder tomorrow or it'll most likely be awhile.

after over 17 hours in my bed i finally got up. I had no real reason to get up besides going to the bathroom and getting some food. i could've done without the food though. where do i go from here?

"it doesn't take strength to hold a grudge, it takes strength to let one go. the most important thing in friendship is forgiveness"
--Uncle Jesse on Full House

Before you can heal the world, you have to heal yourself. This doesn't have to be a major undertaking, but it's one for which you should certainly make time. Yes, rearranging your schedule is inconvenient. However, once you do what needs to be done and put the rest back in place, you'll find everything else has become extremely flexible. With more room to move and fewer reasons to worry, you can get lost in the delicious project of enriching yourself. You're ready to try one in every flavor.
efil ym

that's how it is again

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

I can step into another world and I'm just fine, but then I have no choice but to come back to this world where I'm not alright.

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