Thursday, March 31, 2005

I crashed and missed the first part of the college slam dunk contest and 3 point shoot-out, but that's okay because hopefully I'll catch it on saturday. I got up and went to the movies with Marlene, Katherine, and Chance. We saw Guess Who. It was better than I thought it was going to be and I enjoyed it.

I'm not feeling so good right now, but somehow I don't think I'm going to go to sleep like I should.
My spanish composition went fairly smoothly and my geography assignment got done. To stay awake in geography I had to constantly text message people. I still almost fell asleep though. But not to worry, somehow I still managed to copy down all the notes. After geography I went and ate with Paula in the underground. I've had way too much to eat today, but I'm getting my workouts in. Now I really feel like sleeping, but will I wake up at 8 to watch the college slam dunk contest and three point shoot-out?
I ended up getting about an hour and a half of sleep last night. I got up this morning and went to took my sociology test. I think I did alright. After that I went and hung out in the education computer lab with Marlene, Katherine, and Chance until strength training. I was able to get my upperbody push workout in during strength training so that's very good cuz I know I am not going to feel like going to the rec later today. I came back to my dorm and showered and worked some more on my geography assignment that's due later today before rushing off to logic lab only to find out that it had been cancelled. I very slowly walk back, because I'm hot and tired and felt like passing out, to the commons to get some food. I guess now I can finish my geography and study more for my spanish composition.
I went to shoot pool to take a break from studying. It just so happened that Ryan was heading down there just as I was so we went and shot some games together. He had to run, but I stayed and shot a few more games. I wasn't anywhere ready to leave, but I hit a few good shots to end a game so I decided to call it a night. Now I need to study for the rest of the night and BS my way through sociology then try to cram for my spanish composition then finish my geography assignment.

This was a make or break week and it looks like it broke me.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

This loss today provided me with so much more motivation. We lost because I didn't have the endurance to play the whole game. I came out in the first half and we were down 2. We went down by 14 and were down 12 when I came back in. I led us on a 15-6 run to end the half but took a hard fall to end the half that knocked the wind out of me. I took a couple hard falls tonight, but that's no excuse. We kept it close the second half, but whenever I came out in the 2nd half the other teams guard blew by whoever was guarding him. He only had 1 point against me, but like I said before, I didn't have the endurance to play the whole game. This loss hurt in a different way than losses usually do for me.

After the game I did a basic leg workout to keep up with my schedule. Now I need to eat and read. This could be along night.

Random thing: On my way walking back from the rec I noticed a cookie on the ground. Then another cookie. Pretty soon I realized that it was a trail of cookies. In all I counted about 15 cookies. Too bad the trail just ended and didn't really lead anywhere.
spanish lab is such a waste of time. had my test in caen today so i got out early as usual. i didn't feel like waiting around for logic, so i left to come back to my room. anything i miss today i can get in lab tomorrow so it's no big deal.
R.I.P. Johnnie

I was shocked when I read the news. There'll never be another one like you.

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

I went and got my workout after geography. First I went to check Rudder for work. I signed up for 23 hours next two days :\ I wonder how that'll work out. But I need the money. I did an upperbody pull workout today along with abs.

Yesterday I didn't eat my first meal of the day until around 6pm and today it wasn't until 5pm. I really need to fix that.
Something tells me that this week is going to break me. I just don't know anymore. I came out strong this semester, maybe too strong. And now I have nothing left.

"Told 'em I finished school, and I started my own business
They say, 'Oh you graduated?'
No, I decided I was finished"

Monday, March 28, 2005

Classes were good today. I made myself go to all of them. I even stayed for logic even though it was a TA teaching it since our profs wife had a baby yesterday. On the way back to my dorm I stopped and watched a class drop eggs, in their homemade contraptions, from the second story of the parking garage and hoping they didn't break. Some were good and some were just terrible. One groups made it from there so they decided to test it from the roof of the parking garage. To my surprise the egg survived. After that one I left to change and went to meet Greg at the rec to workout. I did an upperbody push workout and hopefully tomorrow I can do a upperbody pull workout and on wednesday a lowerbody workout. While walking by T passed us by and we got a ride with him. He had lost his cell phone, but knew who most likely had it so I let him use mine and we went and picked his up. I came back and got some food since I hadn't eaten all day.

How to make myself study?

I can't wait to drive your new scion :D

Sunday, March 27, 2005

I still didn't get to sleep until around 5am for some reason. I got up this morning and got everything ready to go and got dressed for church. Church was very good today, I'm glad I went back for easter weekend. Everybody loved my easter outfit. After church we ate an early easter dinner after church over my grandmothers. Always good food. I ate then passed out on the couch because I was that tired. They woke me up when it was time to go. We went home and loaded up the car and headed for college station. Shortly after we got on the freeway I was knocked out. I woke up once to a text message and didn't wake up again until we were at Marlene's dorm. We unloaded her stuff and took pictures, then we got Sonic and brought my stuff up. Now it looks like I'll be up all night since I had a couple naps.

I love my new shirt and tie :D

I went and picked up Q and we finished watching the Illinois comeback over Arizona. Great great game. After that we swung by Alison's room for a little bit then met up with Mandy, Arielle, and Crissy at Coco's. It was mostly fun times. I'm glad I went. We spent awhile there then Q and I rented Sex and the City and Chris Rock:Never Scared. We watched a couple episodes and most of Never Scared, but I could tell he was getting tired and he could tell I was getting tired so we called it a night. I came home and was surprised that everyone was still up. I packed a few things and now I need to sleep.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

if you say it, then mean it. it's that simple.
Quentin called me around noon today and asked me if I wanted to go eat with him and his dad at Thelma's. At first, I almost didn't pick up the phone, then I almost didn't go because i really wanted to sleep. But I got up and got ready and they came and picked me up. I'm very glad that I went. They have some GOOOOD barbeque. And somebody in there told us the fish was even better so I'll have to try that the next time I go. After eating we met up with Greg and Ding at the UH rec center. We played I don't know how many 4 on 4 games. It was good for me, even though I had to play in my K-Swiss. At one point my range just became ridiculous. I hit a 3 then took a couple steps back and hit that. I did that two more times and was feeling pretty confident about my shot. That game and the next game I was just on fire. After we finished hooping, Ding took Greg home while Quentin and I did an upperbody push workout. I really need to get more consistent with my workouts. I came home and showered and luckily caught the end of the West Virginia vs. Louisville game. Louisville was down 20 at one point, but came back and one in overtime. It was a good ending and I'm glad Louisville won. Now i'll rest up for a little while then go out to eat with some people.
Finally went to shoot pool with Marlon and Marlene. We played cut throat, but it was basically them vs. me. I still won most of the games though. I came home and wanted to eat, but didn't have time if I wanted to get out. My momma dropped me off over Q's around 6:30pm. We watched some NCAA and NBA basketball. It was some good games on. Watts stopped by for a little while in his Uggs, then Mr. Black made an appearance. After basketball we met up with Greg and Daniel and the Palace. Mandy and Arielle also came a little later. I was off today, but still bowled decently. After bowling with the people I came with I bowled three games against Toni. She was there the last time I went and offered me a chance to bowl with her and Dee then. I didn't that time, but I decided to take on the challenge this time. She beat me the first two games, but I won the third game. She's a lot more consistent than I am, but that's because she bowls almost everyday. Maybe I'll get another rematch if we meet up there tomorrow for some cheap bowling. After the Palace we all went to IHOP. IHOP doesn't split checks though so we decided not to each there. Instead sat in the waiting area trying to think of other places to go. We were thinking outloud and Mandy suggested Denny's, but nobody knew where a Denny's was. Next thing we know the hostess at IHOP is actually telling us where a Denny's is. We thought that was very nice of her so we tipped her for her help. We got to Denny's and all it is is the ghetto IHOP. The tables and floor were sticking. Half of the things that we asked for, they didn't have. We had a lot of good laughs though including a phone call to Mandy's back-up guy. We finished up around 3am and Poke dropped me off. Stupid guy at the gate, but that's another story. I got in and watched the half of the NAACP Image Awards that Marlene taped for me. I would've loved to see the whole show, but I'm glad for the parts that I caught, especially the induction of Oprah into the NAACP Image Awards Hall of Fame. Oprah is just...too amazing to describe with words. Now I need to sleep, but as usual I'm not tired.

Friday, March 25, 2005

I'm back to just staying up too late for no reason now. My sleeping schedule has become backwards again. I finally got to sleep around 7am, but it seemed that people forgot that I don't wake up early so my phone kept going off this morning. I finally got up around 1pm and ate. Now I'll got shoot pool with Marlon and Marlene in a little bit.

I hope everybody has a good good friday.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Back home and glad to be here. We stopped at 3 or 4 different targets on the way home trying to find me a shirt for easter. i found one, but it was a large and i'd prefer an extra-large. i still got it though. i also got a tie that i'd never thought i'd have. i'll have to get pictures of it for some people to believe it.
I went to shoot pool, but I never made it there. Once again I spent my night trying to help out a friend. Do I mind? No, it's something that I love to do. But now how to I make it to class today?

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

I went to our basketball game vs. St. Joe's tonight. It was a good game even though we lost. We put up a good fight and the crowd was fucking amazing. After the game I went to Wal-mart with Ofon, Jeannie, Kym, and Constance. Then we all got food from Sonic. We got back to the dorms and everybody was outside because something had set the fire alarm off. We had to wait a little while for the fire truck to come and them to look around. Now I'm back in my room and I'll watch Sister Act in a little while. I wanted Sister Act 2, but they only had 1. It's okay since I just watched Sister Act 2 before I came back to A&M and I'll watch it again this weekend.

I dressed up nicely again today and I'll probably do it again tomorrow after strength training.
Last night completely through my sleeping schedule off. But if I had to do it all over again I would've stayed up and did the same things I did. Friends first.
I got up and went to work. Only ate once today, which sucked. Somebody had some popcorn in there so I asked to to let me have some and he just gave me the rest of his bag. Work was fun as usual. I was with a good crew. The bravo team held it down. I was expecting two maybe three trucks, it turns out that they had seven trucks. For each truck I had a cup of coffee. Lynn and I were actin a fool with the coffee, sippin it through our straws. It reminded me of Daboo and his tea in Be Cool. We finished a little early, but I still put 2am on my time card. Now I'll be up all night again cuz I took that long nap. Damn me.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

I always take too long of naps. Dammit.
For the past couple days when I've gotten up my knee has been hurting. I hope it doesn't last long this time.

One more class. I don't know if dressing up will be enough to get me through geography though.

Trust? not really.
I finally sleep around 5am. That's the problem with me and sleep. I got a goodnights sleep the night before and even though I stayed up and stayed busy all day yesterday I didn't get tired until very late. Thanks to Marlene I got up this morning because I turned my alarm off without even thinking about just hitting the snooze button. I got up my 20 minutes before class though and made myself dress up today. It gives me more energy and I knew that I'd need the energy to get through today. If I make it through today without a nap then I know I'm going to crash when I get off work tonight. Lets hope I can stay busy.

So far my classes have actually been good again today. Hopefully my next two will go as well as my first two did. I know I wouldn't have made it through sociology if I hadn't have dressed up though. I'm glad I did. It just makes my day that much better when I dress up.
Of course I'm not sleep now even though I made myself stay up all day. I got most of my hair cut off tonight, but I didn't cut it as low as I usually do. It's still a shock to me when I cut my hair, I always think that it's going to be more hair than there is whenever I touch my head. It just feels wierd for a little while.

I really need to stop eating so much. I know it's a problem now. I just eat for no reason. I eat because I know that the food I'm going to eat tastes good, not because I'm hungry. That's bad. Especially when I end up eating this late like I just did.

I'm so so fat, but I shall get back in shape. And soon.

Monday, March 21, 2005

I stayed up and went to the rec to workout. I need to go a lot more. I am so weak now. Our women played tonight and I wanted to go, but I would've had to go late and leave early so I just didn't go. Instead I went to the PBS probate. It was better than I thought it was going to be, that is once it finally got started. The Kappa line did their thing. Plus it brought out the black people and that's always a good thing here at A&M. Afterwards I went to shoot pool. I played terrible today. I had to stay a little longer than I planned to because my backspin was not working during the game. Now I need to make myself sleep at a decent hour because tomorrow promises to be a long day.

Congratulations to my brother for getting his internship with Continental Express.
I almost didn't get up for spanish today. I figured that it was the first day back and we wouldn't really do much. But I ended up getting up 20 minutes before class and making it just on time. We did a lot of vocab so now I need to catch up on what we did before spring break and learn this new stuff. CAEN was cool and we got out early as usual. Logic had me frustrated for most of the time because it seemed like complete BS. We were assuming things and it just didn't make since that you assume things in logic. But right when he finished the last problem, just before everybody got up to leave, it clicked and I realized why. Therefore classes went good for me today. Now lets see if I can stay up all day so I can sleep tonight.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Even though I was tired I made myself get off my bed and go to the rec to shoot around with Greg and Kym. We got lucky and ended up with a court to ourselves. I was shooting around and couldn't buy a basket, not even a free-throw. Everything was short or to the left. We started playing 21 and I still couldn't hit anything, especially a free-throw. Then I hit one Jordan-like fadeaway and I knew once it went in that I had caught fire. From there on out I was the next Jordan. I stole his fadeaway and once that was dropping that opened the lane wide up. To sum up how hot I was, while we were playing a game of horse I hit a shot from the three-point line on the opposite side of the court. Perfect. In the last game of 21 we played right before the rec closed everybody's legs were dead so all shots were short. I finally got to 19 and once I got the ball back I started a countdown in my head. I took the ball up top and said, "Hey there Byron Russel." I then proceeded to duplicate the game winning shot from the 1998 NBA finals that Jordan hit over Russel. It was a thing of beauty that touch nothing but nylon. I just stood there and posed.

I needed to get back in the gym and I'm very glad that I went tonight. Now I need to make sure I go workout tomorrow.
I like my new shoes :-D I like them so much that I had to dress up in outfits to match them and take pictures.

This is my favorite of the pictures that I took.

I like my new black and red shirt as well. Even more so now that they match my shoes perfectly.

I have dress shoes now so I can dress up whenever I want. But will I wake up in time to get ready to dress up?
I got up today and got all my stuff together. Before leaving town I ended up getting two pairs of shoes. I love shoes :-D. We got back to A&M and unloaded everything. I'm proud of myself. I actually unpacked everything already. That's a first for me. Now I feel like taking a nap, but I need to stay up so I can get back on my sleeping schedule.
Today was a much better day than I had expected it to be. It was a relaxing day. Watched some basketball on tv. Watched some basketball in person. Finally saw The Incredibles, with good company. Watched Ray again, but this time with all the behind the scenes footage. All I can say is...Amazing. My momma's laptop finally started working consistenly, even if it was late late night. I ended up meeting up with some old friends at IHOP and stayed there until around 4:45. That was full of laughs.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

It's great having a sister that will stay up with you when she knows you're not in such a good mood.

Friday, March 18, 2005

just more news to bring my day down
I had a feeling shortly after I started my day that it was going to be a bad day. And it has been. Why do I even get my hopes up for anything anymore. You would've thought that I would've learned by now, but my dumbass hasn't. My break had been going well, but today...fuck today. Fuck hope.
Tonight I just chilled at home for the first time. It was kind of boring, but refreshing at the same time. I started watching Madea's Family Reunion. I got most of the way through it when I was called to go out and get Monica. Marlene went with me and we followed the directions until the street we were on, woodridge, just disappeared. We took a couple different routes until we finally found the right street we were looking for. But they weren't there yet so we were told to wait at a corner and they would find us. We waited at the corner for a little while, but it wasn't the best of neighborhoods and didn't seem too safe to just be sitting there in front of somebody's house. We drove around some and ended up at a 24 hour McDonalds until they got to the house. Finally they got to the house and we got Monica. Now I'm back home and should sleep since I have to get up early tomorrow, but I must finish watching Madea's Family Reunion first.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Movies, movies, movies. That's what I've done this spring break. That and the past couple of days sleep.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Yesterday Marlene and I went to help my grandmother pick out a new monitor for her computer from Micro Center. I got lucky and my grandmother ended up buying me some blank cds and The Incredibles dvd. Then we went to Central Market and got food. After we set her monitor up and got back home Marlon came to get us to go shooting. Bree went with us and we met up with Jaime there. Near the end I found out how to get rid of the anticipation of the kickback. That makes your shot a LOT more accurate. Jaime had this little .22 that you would think was a toy, but it had a little power in it. Afterwards we went to T.G.I.Fridays. We almost got up and walked out because the menu choices weren't that good, but we ended up eating there. I was starving and was done with my burger and fries before anybody else was done with half of their meal. Then I wasn't going to eat dessert, but I ended up eating half of Marlon's. I got home and left again to go to the movies with Kym and Olivia then went back to Olivia's to watch The Italian Job. I shouldn't watch movies with that kind of driving in it before I have to drive because then I want to drive like that. I really want a stick shift. I got home and stayed up longer because I knew I didn't have to wake up early for a change.

Today I slept in until 2pm. I got up and ate then went to shoot pool. Afterwards I met up with Sammie to eat at IHOP. It's been a very relaxing day so far.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Tonight I went to the movies with Alison and finally saw Hitch. Excellent movie. Afterwards I dropped her off then went over to Pujan's to watch the Rockets game. They should've won easily, but they barely escaped with the win. I ended up eating over there and we had a good talk. It's a shame that we don't talk as much while at college anymore. I'll have to do something about that. I left his place and went over to Olivia's and watched Shrek 2 with her and Kym. Now I'm back home and need sleep since I have to be up early again in the morning.

Monday, March 14, 2005

Last night I ended up going over to Pujan's to hang out with him and Pang before Pang left. I didn't get over there until about 10:45 and we were going to just hang out and watch a movie, but we ended up going to Slick Willie's to shoot pool. I'd heard Pang was good so I was looking forward to playing him. We played about 8 or 9 games of cut throat, I won 5 of those. Then I played Pang in a game of 8 ball, I came back from a 4-1 deficit to win that game. Clutch. But the best part of the night was that Pang taught me how to do a draw shot. It's about time I learned how to do one. After we left we were on our way to Taco Bell when we get pulled over. Right after the cop turned his lights on Pang realized that he didn't have his headlights on. Stupid cops. Instead of just telling us to turn them on he goes through the whole routine and since Pang wasn't on his parents insurance he gave him a ticket for that. We got our food from Taco Bell and ate at Pujan's before going out separate ways.

I woke up this morning and took my momma to work. Got Robeck's for Marlene and Chick-fil-a for me before coming back to eat. Seems like nap time now.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

I woke up today and headed off to the galleria to meet up with Lam. I bought me some more t-shirts just cuz. I wanted to find me some more shorts but I didn't see any that I wanted. I got some food and came home to eat. I watched the first half of Extreme Makeover Home Edition. I'll have to watch the second later though because I had to stop to watch The Simpson's since it was new. What to do tonight?
I took a nap then got up to FINALLY go eat pie with Kristan. We ate it over ding's and watched some of march madness. Later Daniel came over and we met up with Christina at Tan Tan. Jenny met us there when we were done and we were all supposed to go to the movies, but Ding and Daniel decided to go bowling, but Jenny and I still went to see Be Cool. I'm glad I finally saw it. Funny stuff, even though I expected more from The Rock. As we were walking out after the movie we saw that Diary Of A Mad Black Woman was about to start and we ended up going in to watch that. Jenny said we'd only stay 30 minutes, but I knew better and of course we ended up watching the whole movie. I love that movie. Now I'm back home and should get some sleep. Maybe I will within the next hour.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

I stayed up last night watching the 2004 college basketball and slam dunk contest and then streetball. I stayed up thinking I could sleep in because Monica was supposed to take my momma to pershing this morning. Instead I'm awoken around 7am to find out that Monica didn't want to wake up so I had to. I took my momma to pershing and then got my breakfast from chick-fil-a. Now I feel like going back to sleep, but I'm not sure if I should.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Monica came and got Marlene and I this morning. I got up and packed, Monica came and got me first. Then we got Marlene and went to look at the house that she's going to live in for the summer and next semester. I got Layne's then we went to McAllister's to eat. I drove back to Houston. felt good to drive again. We unloaded then went to Pershing. After that I took Monica to work then tried to make it to Tapioca House to meet Ding and Kristan. Monica's car doesn't like me though so it decided to start stalling. I got into a gas station and let it cool off then I finally got there and we played our word dojo and of course got the high score once again. Kristan left then Ding and I went to his house. I played Smackdown vs. Raw while he took a quiz. After that we went to Rice to shoot pool. We ended up making our own games up, which was fun. Now I'm back home and will relax until I find something to do tomorrow.
I took a nap then got up to go meet some people at the MSC to bowl. That was fun and I hadn't bowled in forever. I did alright, a 136 and a 135. The guy gave us the group rate so it was less than $2 a person. When that closed I came back to the commons to shoot pool. I did okay at first then after a little while I couldn't hit anything. I ended up playing Brian before I left and won those two games somehow. Now I need to pack some stuff and get some sleep so I can be up and ready to go in the morning.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

I'm done for now. I really needed this break. I began to lose my motivation for class these past couple weeks. Hopefully this break will give me the rest I need and the strength to get through the rest of this semester.
Somehow I just see how to do most of the logic proofs, which has made the logic that was supposed to become very hard quite easy. We had our quiz in logic today, but first we did some problems off the practice quiz. I had forgotten that he put practice quizzes online, but I was able to do those with no problem so I felt confident about the quiz. I got the quiz and just flew through it. I left and didn't feel like eating so I sat outside, since it was nice out, and looked over some spanish. I really want to learn the language. We just went over a couple things in spanish then he let us go. He officially told us we didn't have class tomorrow, but most people had already decided they weren't going. Now I just have one more class and then I'm on spring break.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

I finally got to sleep around 8:30am. I got up around noon and went to spanish lab. We just watched a short video then told what we were doing for spring break. After that I went up to the womens center to visit Marlene and Lindsay. For CAEN all I had to do was turn in my homework then leave. I got food and went to Marlene's room. I decided not to go to Logic because all we were going to do was review for tomorrow's quiz. Instead I just worked all the problems out of the book. I feel pretty confident about the proofs. I ended up taking a nap there then got up and ate again. Tonight we went over to Katherine's to play Cranium Turbo Edition. It's a little different and a little harder than the regular version, but it was lots of fun. Now my sleeping schedule is just off so it doesn't look like I'll be going to sleep anytime soon.
there goes my sleeping schedule. and i was actually doing good.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

these images are put into my head and i don't know what to do with the memories that they revive. i enjoy the memories, but soon they joy is short lived. then i'm left with the feeling i have now. i'm not sure what that feeling is. not to say it's bad, but it's not good. therefore i just try to force the images from my head, for if i don't have the images then i don't have the memories. but i want the memories so every once in awhile i allow myself to focus on the images and relive those moments. but i must let them go so i get online and search for things or turn to the television for a distraction. sometimes i sleep, because when i sleep i usually don't dream. and if i do dream i usually wake up quickly because my dreams tend to blend in to what i think is reality. i wake up confused at times wondering whether what just happened was real or made up. at times i'm glad it was a dream while other times i wish that what occured was real. i lay in bed thinking about the snippet of a dream that i had trying to half fall asleep so i can continue them to find out what would happen. but my imagination isn't what it used to be so time stops and i'm frozen in the middle of the night with nowhere to go and nothing to do. the next thing i know it's morning and i'm left with an unfinished dream and a confused mind. days that begin like that are often not my best days. those are the days it feels like i woke up on the wrong side of the bed and my whole day goes wrong. but in the end the end those are the days i just go to sleep early so my day will end. i end up getting a good nights sleep that night so in the end the bad turns out to be good for me. but with the good nights sleep i stay up all night the next night and don't get sleep then. that's when i stay up late and the images start to come back into my head. it's a continuous cycle that i'm stuck in and have stopped trying to get out of for now. one day i'll break it, but for now i just accept it.
Hopefully all the studying I did for spanish was put to good use in my mid-term that I just finished. I didn't remember all the words, but I'm very glad I studied them as much as I did because there was no word bank on the test. The oral part wasn't as bad as I expected it to be except for the identifications. Those killed me. The rest of the test wasn't too bad. There were a couple parts that stumped me, but I think I did fairly well. Now I'll relax until I feel like switching to logic or sociology. Most likely logic because I don't like sociology even though I hear the book I'm supposed to be reading is pretty good. Maybe I'll open it one day.
It's just something about sociology that I'm not liking right now. Maybe it's the prof.

Monday, March 07, 2005

I actually got some studying done today. I spent an hour in the library, another hour in spanish review and another hour in Marlene's room studying. I learned, hopefully, a couple hundred vocab words for spanish. I still have another couple hundred though. I'm actually getting the proofs in logic. Sociology is another story though. I just feel like going to sleep right now.
I almost didn't get up for classes today, but I knew I needed to so I finally did. Spanish was a good review. I started writing out all my vocabulary words since my spanish vocabulary absolutely sucks. CAEN was cool, we got out early as usual so I went back to doing my spanish vocabulary. Logic was good. I understand proofs fairly well so far, so hopefully I'll do good on my quiz on thursday. Now hopefully I can get more studying done today in spanish, logic, and I really need to read for sociology.
such an unproductive weekend school-wise.

where has all my creativeness gone?

missing you.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Today just hasn't been my day. My mood never really got any better today. I just emerged myself in dreamweaver tutorials. I started playing around with dreamweaver, but I have no more creative juices so I couldn't really come up with anything too worthwhile.

This is the beginning of the end. Maybe that's a good thing.
I don't know what's wrong with me today. I haven't felt like doing much. I've been online looking up different stuff. I haven't eaten. I'm not tired because I got plenty of sleep, but I don't feel like moving much. I'm just in a very down mood for some reason. I can't wait for this week to be over to I can just go home and relax.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

I managed to stay awake and I ended up watching John Q. I was still tired, so I decided to get out of my room and go shoot pool. I played well overall, but had a couple games where I couldn't stop scratching. Now I think I'll go see Be Cool tonight. I could use the laughs.
Watched a couple Madea plays last night. Started falling asleep during the second one cuz it was like 6am and I hadn't had a nap all week. But it was a fun night. Those plays are so helpful. I got some sleep and woke up this morning for the Delta Xi Nu spaghetti dinner. Marlene ended up going to help them so I had two extra tickets. So Kym and Constance were woken up to go. We went with Ofon there. It was very good, better than I thought, but that's most likely cuz my sister made the spaghetti sauce. I had two plates so now I'm stuffed. I feel like taking a nap, but I'm not sure if I should.

Friday, March 04, 2005

Today started out bad for me and I didn't think today was going to bring any good. Watching Oprah helped some. Tyler Perry, Shemar Moore, and Kimberly Elise were on. Afterwards Ofon took me to Academy. I was looking for some new pool supplies. I ended up getting me a new pool cue. And since I got a new pool cue I had to get me a new case. Then I went on and got me a a glove, some chalk, some new tips for my old pool cue, a tip shaper and I think that's it. I came back and put a new tip on my old cue then went to try out my new cue. Constance and Kym came down and shot around with me. I like my new cue. I ended my last game with two nice bank shots. It was a good way to go out.

I went and got two hamburgers. I don't know why I always get two. I should really work on that. I went to Kym's room to eat and watch Meet The Fockers with her, Constance, and Jeannie. Now I'm not sure if I should watch another movie or just sleep.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

I went over Marlene's and we got pizza from Antonio's. I ended up with a large pizza, but I still ate it all somehow. I enjoy my time just hanging out with my sister. I should enjoy it while it lasts.

Only one thing really gets to me now. And that's the fact that I've almost stopped believing in God. I hardly feel anything for anybody, but when I think about God tears begin to come to my eyes. I've helped others learn more about God and become closer to him, but now I can't seem to do the same for myself. I look at my Bible everyday and want to pick it up, but I don't. What happened to the days when I used to read it everyday? I still say short prayers everyday, but nothing truly meaningful. I even took my crosses off, and for those of you that know me, I never take my crosses off.

Almost everything I think tells me to go back to how I was last week and just basically cut myself off from the rest of the world, but deep down I don't want to do that. But I'm afraid that eventually I will do that again.
I was awake this morning, but I started to not like sociology so I took a break from it today. I wasn't too happy about my decision, but later I found out that I got a 148/150 on my logic test so I was happy again. I really need to start studying spanish more so I'll be somewhat ready for my mid-term next tuesday. My geography test wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. What to do for the rest of the day? Study? TV? Sleep? Pool? Maybe somehow all of them.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

I gotta get this studying thing down. And soon.
I got sleep last night. The power went out and some point, but came back on around 11am. I actually got up and left my room in time to get food, but I got down to the commons and all the power was still out there so none of the food places were open and neither was the c-store. I went and met up with Marlene and Lindsay since they were in the academic building, which is where my spanish lab is. I hung out with them then got some snacks and went to lab. I spent most of the time on thefacebook along with everybody else in my row. CAEN was easy and we got out early. I almost just came back to my room and skipped logic, but instead I went and ate at Taco Bell then went to logic. Good thing I did, because we're starting proofs and our class is about to get a lot harder.

I hope the Aggies can play a good game tonight, men and women.
I never thought something having to do with cleaning and organizing could make my night, but folding shirts made my night tonight. Thanks to this video i can now fold shirts like a pro. I took all my shirts off hangers and out of drawers and folded them all just like in the video.

Tonight was a good night. I went to shoot pool and ended up playing my old janitor from DUNN. He won the first game, but I won the next two. I decided to go to the rec and as I was walking there I saw a bunch of people walking into G. Rollie. Then I saw our quarterback, Reggie McNeal going in so I decided to find out what was going on. They were having the Night Of Champions, which is where all the football players get together to lift weights and try to break the school records or just set new personal bests. They did the bench press, squats, and cleans. I've now seen a guy squat 675lbs and another guy bench 500lbs. One day I hope to be able to rep 225lbs a couple times. It was a little motivation to see one guy rep 225lbs 29 times, another guy 31 times, and the last guy 39 times. I was very impressed. They also did the vertical jump, where two guys jumped over 40". Lastly they had a dunk contest, which a white dude won. It was all very interesting, I'm glad that I ended up going. Afterwards I went to meet Marlene at her job and I walked her back to her dorm. I came back and shot pool for a little while before it shut down for Silver Taps. I came back to my dorm and ate some ravioli before learning to fold shirts. That really did make my night and I really did fold about 40 shirts. Now I need to go to bed so I can stay somewhat on my sleeping schedule.

I hope things continue to get better for me.

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