Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Shit. This is not the time I need everything to start falling apart again. Right now my will power and self motivation levels are at zero. Only by the grace of God did I make it to my health test yesterday and logic test today. I wasn't nearly as prepared as I should've been for either one of them though.
Why do I keep hoping? It hasn't done me any good. Yet I keep hoping and keep getting let down. I could say again that I won't hope anymore, but I've said that too many times and I always get my hopes up about something else. I guess I'll just be stuck in this cycle and somehow learn to deal with it.
The past couple days I just hadn't been hungry. Now I'm hungry, but I don't feel like eating.
My semester had been picking up, but recently did a one eighty. I have no clue how to get back on track this time. I thought I had been doing what I needed to do, but I guess not.
Why do I keep hoping? It hasn't done me any good. Yet I keep hoping and keep getting let down. I could say again that I won't hope anymore, but I've said that too many times and I always get my hopes up about something else. I guess I'll just be stuck in this cycle and somehow learn to deal with it.
The past couple days I just hadn't been hungry. Now I'm hungry, but I don't feel like eating.
My semester had been picking up, but recently did a one eighty. I have no clue how to get back on track this time. I thought I had been doing what I needed to do, but I guess not.
# posted by Matt @ 2:48 PM 
