Starting Over

It's been over two years since I've written here and probably about just as long since I've really lived. That all changed July 4th, 2009 when I got to go skydiving. It was most exhilerating, amazing, scary, awesome, best adventure ever. I got to share the experience with Pujan, which just made it that much better. After skydiving I made myself go hoop at the UH rec with friends since I finally had a saturday morning off. Another amazing experience getting to see that many old friends at once. I'm completely out of shape, but it didn't matter, I had a blast. After basketball I had to go to work. It wasn't bad and after the morning I had there was no way I was going to let work ruin my day. I caught up with Q after work and after a struggle to get some food at Wendy's we went to see Pelham 123. Good movie and a great way to end the night. I should've been asleep a couple hours ago, but I'm still so excited from the day I had. I've watched the video of my skydive five times and still can't quite believe I did it. I'd been in a real funk for the past month, but once I jumped out of the plane all my worries blew away. I got a fresh outlook on life and I'm hoping to get back on track and continue moving forward. I don't see what can get in my way now.

another year down. not much to say about it, but that it's been a blessed year for me. i was able to get back in school and have the support to make it through the semester. i was able to keep a steady job and even though that's come to an end it was a wonderful opportunity for me. wonderful friends, new and old. so proud of my siblings for all getting new careers. i couldn't ask to be in a better position right now in my life compared to the past couple years. life is good.

sometimes i think my life would be easier if i just drank. maybe i'd fit in more. maybe it'd be easier for me to meet new people. maybe it'd be easier for me to open up around others and have a good time. maybe i'd get out more instead of my routine being work, school, work, school, work, school and more work. i made a promise to myself over 10 year ago that i wouldn't drink, so i don't want to break it, but the pressure is mounting to. and it's all pressure from within, which is tearing me apart. i've known all along i never really made it through my depression. i was able to push it down for awhile, but recently i've had a few misses in life and it's coming back up. this is going to make this semester harder than i was already making it.

Work hasn't gotten any better. I'm in a good mood when certain people are there and a bad mood when others are. People are leaving which is sad. We got one new girl in and she seems cool. She came from another store so she already knows what she's doing.

Phase II is not easy. It's only 3 days of weights, but they are a HARD 3 days. I met my match on squats today at 305lb. My legs just gave out on the 9th rep of the second set. I can't recall the last time that happened on squats.

I'm trying to get back into a mode where I can study some. Slowly but surely I'm wanting to learn again. That's exciting to me.

I finally felt like my old self tonight on the basketball court. It felt great. Hopefully I can keep it up the next few weeks.

Work is changing again. The managers are becoming more uptight, which is bugging me. It's caused me to start messing with them in different ways. I don't think they like it, but I find it hilarious. We're getting a new general manager in. Today was his first day. I haven't met him yet since I had the day off, but I don't think I'm going to like him. I know that's not a good thing, but I'm just not feeling him.



Go see Ricky Bobby aka El Diablo: spanish for a fighting chicken

Today was another good day. A long one, but a good one. I woke up and did Chinese breakfast with Q, Ding, Kristan, Angie, and Albert. Always good times when with good friends. After that I did some more stuff at the old apartment. Then it was off to work. It was ridiculously slow today, but luckily time didn't seem to slow down like it usually does. Plus I was working with people I liked.

Marlene bought herself a new car today. It's a Toyota Scion Tc. It's a nice little car. Black on black. Not much trunk space, but the back seats do recline. I was surprised, but it has a little kick to it when you hit the accelerator. Hopefully I'll get more chances to test drive it. The first one was fun when I got to take it out tonight to see Miami Vice with Loren and Q. Not a great plot, but an enjoyable movie.

I should really be asleep now since I have work at 8am tomorrow and I'll be there all day. But that's not my style.

My day off Monday seemed so long. It was wonderful. I barely did anything. But of course that meant I didn't feel like being back at work Tuesday. This week has gone by smoothly so far. Phase II seems like it'll be good. It's not quite what I expected, but I believe in it.

I got to do a lot of cooking at work tonight, which was awesome. I had to ask how to cook half the dishes I was doing, but most came out good. At the end I cooked food for Vanessa again and Allan, one of my managers. They both loved it, so that made me feel good.

Cable is evil. So addicting.